Dropped out of school, now my mother isnt talking to me. She said shes too embarrassed and disappointed in me. Oh well. I just couldnt do it anymore. I got a job at a coffee shop.

so much fun. The constant flow of people visiting me and 255 Boerum the last two weeks have been great. Linds, Corey, Phebe, Dan, Elle, Eli, Chico, Matt, Ben, Molly and Mike...and everyone else that has came up and stayed at 255 thanks for coming to Brooklyn and hanging out. What seemed like never ending fun with 4 people in one bed and dollar tall cans...now thats what i call bong rips,a certain someone vomiting in my bathtub, hand rolled smokes, cheap 160 proof vodka, loosing people in the subway, jumping the turnstiles, getting 150 dollar tickets, home made breakfasts, life cafe, vans running on vegetable oil, almost but never getting lost driving in the city, shitty shows that reminded me of hell, getting smacked in the face with fake blood and my face still being half red, getting free hamburgers,giving corn rows to a white boy, condoms found underneath my couch, TUPAC fer life, biggie pandora, homeboys, home girls...and everything else great that has happened within the last 2-3 weeks...Thanks for making it fun. Come back soon. We love you.

my kitty is laying on my tummy sleeping and purring away. i love him and he loves me. i have a kitten and thats all i have to love in this city. so emo. but so true.

I like this.

i've been drinking too much. we are going to have epic shows in our basement. things are okay. i lost my key necklace and lost it on the train and this cute boy now has it. I must get ahold of him. I cant stop thinking about it. Blah blah blah. I have the best roommates. For the most part. I am Happy...Enough. I cant stop day dreaming about the west coast. Soon enough, soon enough.

new years was great. it's the perfect time for a new year. i was getting sick of 2008 i was ready for the change...2009 and feelin' fine. WTF 1999! hell yes.

new years in NYC. hell yes.

7 hour train ride alone back to new york city tomorrow at 9am. I dont know how I should feel about going back...Vermont is so depressing and lonely I dont want to stay here. I just dont know how to handle new york alone. I've always had Nate around when I was there...now it's just me...

I knew things wouldn't stay so golden. I feel like everything I had going for me the last few months fell apart. When I come home from VT I am moving into a new apartment. The apartment is great. Awesome part of Brooklyn, awesome friends, awesome bedroom. I have the door to the backyard in my room and it leads to the back porch/ treehouse fort thing. It's perfect for summer. I really want to drop out of school. I skip more then I go. I'm always too sleepy or hungover in the morning and I always want to do something else instead of going to school. fuck school. I need to find a job when I go back also. Rent is $600 and with Nate in Portland again I have to pay full rent instead of half. I'm going back to sleeping alone, late night drunken train rides alone, no skipping school and laying in bed all day, no more adventures and surprises. It's just me. But I guess now I can work on all the projects I kind of put on hold the last few months...and finish all the half read books and half sewn clothes I never finished. Urg, I feel like im just starting over all over again. I need to figure this all out. Alot of things are still unsure. I'll figure it out.

Im not celebrating christmas this year. I will only be giving letters. Thats all. I made some gifts for people I care dearly about. Thats it. Im stuck in a snowstorm in Vermont. It's crazy. It wont stop snowing! Urgg.